As I write this I’m coming out of a couple of bad days during which I have felt that I have made little progress and taken a pessimistic view of what I have achieved in recent months and where I am taking it all.
I was trying to understand why I felt that way during these last couple of days so I can try to avoid it, because it is basically negativity that is getting in the way of my progress when it happens.
I have to say that for me a lot of the problem is the home working. Being alone for most of the day is not for me and never will be. I hate it with a passion. I’m never good alone – I need people; I love people. I knew when I embarked on this journey into self employment, when I jumped, that it would be like this for some time. What I didn’t realise is that occasionally even I would not be able to shake off the demons that sometimes creep up and surround you when you are alone. Worry about money. A lack of confidence in what you are doing. No longer knowing your place in the world. I have noticed that, when I am working alone at home, these demons tend, if you are not careful, to grow; to surround and envelop you, to paralyse you so that you cannot move forward. They torture your soul so that it is impossible to see any aspect of your fledgling business in a positive or optmistic light. They are the voices that say:
NO – I just typed in a load of negative stuff and then back-spaced over it because I don’t want you to read all that rubbish, which, at the end of the day, is the best way to describe all that negative speak from those pesky demons – it really is RUBBISH.
So, I now realise that sometimes when I work alone I become vulnerable to an attack from the demons, and that when it happens, it can blow all the worry out of proportion – now that I understand this, I am on my guard – ready with a counter-attack of POSITIVITY that will kill those demons dead!
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